Monday, 5 December 2016

lost


And for a split second, I am lost
Lost in the ocean of your soul
Immersed in it's gentle movement 

Discovering the treasures hidden
An unheard language
In which, I long to be fluent.

It is when our eyes lock
Reality escapes me 
Time is still, in that very moment.

Yet, when the world around stops
A world within blossoms 
And there is nothing more potent.

For I am drawn to you
Captured by the joy and the pain
Enchanted by your existence.

And when your glance mirrors mine
I feel it pierce through my core
And I elude into distance.

For the heart that was sat at the window of your soul
Had once before been broken 

Saturday, 4 January 2014

Loves Notes

Give me a moment and allow me to guide your hand
Rip open my chest and grasp your fingers around my heart
Tell me, can you feel your whole body tremble
When my heart beats within your palm?
No body has been so close or heard it so loudly.
Truthfully, it's usually pretty quiet,
But, when you smile.
It's your smile that compels it to charge into battle

And slay through its own walls to simply scream
"I love him"
Allow me to empty my vessels into your soul
As my blood pours you'll feel your burdens lighten
Not an atoms worth of you will remain untouched
I'll destroy every darkness and force your intuition to come alive.
Feel our souls unite and our hearts beat so harmoniously
As though fused together to form one soul, one heartbeat and one powerful love.

Sunday, 20 October 2013

A man's world.

It took 23 years for me to realise I'm a social construction of a man's world.
Although, I once loved me, that love was lost as a young girl.
I grew up watching Disney, manipulated to believe I need to find my prince.
So I've been searching for my happily ever after, ever since.
As if I needed to be saved by a strong man to be complete,
But I'm a woman and we have the strength with which no man can ever compete.
The same hidden messages were in my bed time story books,
Deluded into believing that my self-worth was dependent on my looks.
When I loved the one that could never love me back
I became envious of others and made a list of "everything I lack".
It came down to an hour glass figure with a slim waist,
A submissive personality, luscious hair and a pretty face
I thought the conscious were just hating on the industry
Until it's underlying patriarchy really affected me.
I'm God's highest form of creation
And they're telling me that I need a man's appreciation?
Find me a man that could carry a baby inside him for 9 months
Or that could bear the burden of the world and still love the way a woman does
My father told me to study and get an education
But I'd come home from school and switch on the television, and now I see it in the next generation
Our daughters are being led to believe they are inferior to men
Our roles might be different but that doesn't mean we ain't equal to them.
So don't conform to the norms that allow needy women to form
My sisters, you were destined for amazing things, the very day you were born.






















Saturday, 19 October 2013

I will love myself.

I'm going to make falling in love a priority
But not with a man that'll make me insecure
I'm going fall in love with myself
Before I fall in love with the world.

I'm going to value my own voice
I promise to trust my own decision
"I don't think you've made the right choice"
I'll learn to not be swayed by criticism

I refuse to let your disloyalty define me
When things went wrong, I wondered what I lacked
"It's because I'm not pretty or skinny"
And its within this insecurity, that I was trapped.

I don't know why or since when
My self worth became dependent on your acceptance
Every time I was betrayed or rejected
I believed it was down to my incompetence.

I forgot about my own attributes and potential
I wanted to be someone else so desperately
An evil was embedding in my heart
That evil was known as envy.

Other people's lives appeared to be so perfect
And they had everything I didn't
I didn't think I was being ungrateful
I was a product of my worldly experience.

Now, I know it won't be easy and it'll take some time
But no one says that love grows over night
So I'm going to learn to love me truly
I'll love my imperfections and i'll do it right

So if you don't love me, that's okay
Because I will love myself
Starting from today.


Saturday, 28 September 2013

Soul mates.



There was a sound that you heard, when no one else could.
And in my speech, it was the silences that only you understood.

There were verses in my eyes that only you were able to read,
And with every deep look it was my soul that you would feed.

There was a magic in your touch that would heal every pain
A familiar comfort that kept me sane.

There was precision when you spoke, as if you knew what I was thinking
I laid my heart bare, you knew every little thing.

There was a memory in your scent that made me believe
That this wasn't a coincidence and we were meant to be.

So I dared to dream.
Of you.
Of us.
Of tomorrow.

Synchronised were our souls, made for one another
Every heartbeat yearned for my lover.

Caged behind our bodies, our souls could not meet.
Before it's time, yours had to fleet.

Truly your name was written with mine, in eternal ink
But it's a shame our footsteps weren't so in sync.

My heart lost its fine-tuned couplet
And any new beat wouldn't quite fit.

And why would it? Because it was always you from the start
Yet, our destinations were far apart.

Our connection wasn't meant for this world, our love was heavenly.
So I continue to dream
Of you.
Of us.
Of tomorrow.
Eternally.

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Dreams are from the subconscious mind.

So, why do I awake with a pain in my chest.

It's the memories of you translated through dreams

& the pain was the only thing you left.

I can't differentiate between the happiness of having you

& the pain of losing you.

So when they ask how I feel,

I say it's a sensation of nothingness,

An emptiness,

A lifeless soul,

A lost faith,

A broken heart.

I feel betrayed by fate, both yours and mine.

I feel punished by time.

Wednesday, 22 August 2012

meh

Maybe I wasn't enough,
Or maybe I was just too much.
Even if I knew, I couldn't be any less
Or any more,
Than a girl that loved, sacrificed,
Cared and adored.
I can only be myself,
And that self
Loved you so selflessly.

Maybe my fingers just didn't fit
The gaps between yours
Maybe my head just didn't rest
On your chest so perfectly
I'll never know because I only dreamt.
Maybe it was my fault alone,
For dreaming an impossible dream.
Maybe it was my fault for believing
In an impossible love.