Because Of You.

I feel as though over the years my heart has changed shape.

Chipping away at my heart, my arteries and veins

have carved your name; it may sound insane

But why else would my heart favour you

over any other, so it must be true.

I refuse to believe I am in love

Indeed I am in deep attachment to you

I tell myself to get a grip and move on

From this childhood crush

But then I feel my blood rush

In a rage, defiantly

As if you have a control over me internally

At least I have my mind, right?

That you cannot control

I tell myself that anyway, because

You already have a hold on my soul

So I'll be the commander of my thoughts

And I’ll think about whatever I want

But I can't focus I can't sieve through my mind

Because my heart is too loud

I can’t focus when it is the only sound

My heart screams your name throughout my body

Distorting the functions of my organs

And they begin to chant along too

So I give in to the internal screams for a moment

And reminisce back to the days of innocence

To the conception of this sensuality

Back to when you were first introduced to me

As if with a simple hello

You planted a seed in my heart

Which grew with time and

Beckoned my soul towards you

To this point, where I am weak
Because of you.