Mamoo

Kaisa hai nizam ye dunya ka
Koi marrta hai toh koi jeeta hai
Koi rohta hai toh koi hansta hai
Koi koh ta hai aur koi paa ta hai
Kisi ke khushi main kisi ka gham
Kisi ke gham main kisi ki Khushi
Hum mehfil main khul khul ke hanstay Hain
Par akeley hum cheekh cheekh ke rohtay Hain
Unhe kya pata humare dillon ke gham
Jab keh nahi patay ke kitne dukhi Hain hum
Jaane waale challey gaye
Aur humari chamakh ley gaye
Humare gharon ko abaad karne walay
Aaj wohi ghar veeran kar gaye
Humare Zindagi main roshni laane walay
Andhera he andhera kar gaye

🥀 Miss you mamoo

And when she laughs, The whole room lights up
Her eyes glisten, As her lips stretch from her cheeks

But you laugh so loud
It's embarrassing
People are looking
It's not very ladylike

And as she reenacts scenes from her favourite love film, lost in the romance like the hopeless romantic she is, she spins and skips like it were real.

You're so foolish
Childlike
It's so indecent and immodest
To behave how you do

When she sees her best friend after years and can't contain her excitement and runs ahead, forgetting what she was doing, to hug her friend

You're so selfish
You only care about yourself
You just ran off and don't care about anyone else
You act crazy when you see people

When she eats her favourite burger without a care in the world and looks so cute as she drops ketchup down her chin

You're so messy
And so clumsy
You've dropped it all down you

When she watches her favourite love film and cries like it's the first time she's watching it, she looks adorable

Why are you crying
It's only a movie
It's not real
You're stupid

Angel

My Angel.

Who would've thought that small frame
Could carry the weight of the world
And maybe others have faced the same
Trials and tribulations that you have

But I've not witnessed another with your grace
With your immense courage to carry on
Despite all the pain you've had to face
And yet I never hear you complain

Though you're not one for many words
Your sheer presence illuminates a room
And like the singing of the morning birds
You bring joy to the hearts of many

Your love is sincere and unreserved
For each person that will ever meet you
You are certainly more than we deserve
You are selfless and give without question

You faced the worst test as a mother
And buried four of your infant children
Yet your faith does not ever waver
And you hold firm on to the rope of Allah

And when you were left widowed
You vowed to be strong for the children left
And upon those children you have bestowed
Love, mercy, kindness and respect

Altough you are getting older and weak
You have a disabled son at home
Who doesn't hear nor speak
And you dedicate your life to him

And though we try, I know it's not enough
We could never ever repay
Even a fraction of what you do for us
You are the ocean and we are droplets

You are the blossoming tree
While we are the falling leaves
I wish you could just see
How special you really are

Our conversations alway end with ameen
After you make endless dua for everyone
That you've ever met and seen
Because you care so much about others

And I'm honoured to be able to call you mine
My mother
My mother
My mother

lost

And for a split second, I am lost
Lost in the ocean of your soul
Immersed in it's gentle movement 

Discovering the treasures hidden
An unheard language
In which, I long to be fluent.

It is when our eyes lock
Reality escapes me 
Time is still, in that very moment.

Yet, when the world around stops
A world within blossoms 
And there is nothing more potent.

For I am drawn to you
Captured by the joy and the pain
Enchanted by your existence.

And when your glance mirrors mine
I feel it pierce through my core
And I elude into distance.

For the heart that was sat at the window of your soul
Had once before been broken 

Loves Notes

Give me a moment and allow me to guide your hand
Rip open my chest and grasp your fingers around my heart
Tell me, can you feel your whole body tremble
When my heart beats within your palm?
No body has been so close or heard it so loudly.
Truthfully, it's usually pretty quiet,
But, when you smile.
It's your smile that compels it to charge into battle
And slay through its own walls to simply scream
"I love him"
Allow me to empty my vessels into your soul
As my blood pours you'll feel your burdens lighten
Not an atoms worth of you will remain untouched
I'll destroy every darkness and force your intuition to come alive.
Feel our souls unite and our hearts beat so harmoniously
As though fused together to form one soul, one heartbeat and one powerful love.

A man's world.

It took 23 years for me to realise I'm a social construction of a man's world.

Although, I once loved me, that love was lost as a young girl.

I grew up watching Disney, manipulated to believe I need to find my prince.

So I've been searching for my happily ever after, ever since.

As if I needed to be saved by a strong man to be complete,

But I'm a woman and we have the strength with which no man can ever compete.

The same hidden messages were in my bed time story books,

Deluded into believing that my self-worth was dependent on my looks.

When I loved the one that could never love me back

I became envious of others and made a list of "everything I lack".

It came down to an hour glass figure with a slim waist,

A submissive personality, luscious hair and a pretty face

I thought the conscious were just hating on the industry

Until it's underlying patriarchy really affected me.

I'm God's highest form of creation

And they're telling me that I need a man's appreciation?

Find me a man that could carry a baby inside him for 9 months

Or that could bear the burden of the world and still love the way a woman does

My father told me to study and get an education

But I'd come home from school and switch on the television, and now I see it in the next generation

Our daughters are being led to believe they are inferior to men

Our roles might be different but that doesn't mean we ain't equal to them.

So don't conform to the norms that allow needy women to form

My sisters, you were destined for amazing things, the very day you were born.

I will love myself.

I'm going to make falling in love a priority
But not with a man that'll make me insecure
I'm going fall in love with myself
Before I fall in love with the world.

I'm going to value my own voice
I promise to trust my own decision
"I don't think you've made the right choice"
I'll learn to not be swayed by criticism

I refuse to let your disloyalty define me
When things went wrong, I wondered what I lacked
"It's because I'm not pretty or skinny"
And its within this insecurity, that I was trapped.

I don't know why or since when
My self worth became dependent on your acceptance
Every time I was betrayed or rejected
I believed it was down to my incompetence.

I forgot about my own attributes and potential
I wanted to be someone else so desperately
An evil was embedding in my heart
That evil was known as envy.

Other people's lives appeared to be so perfect
And they had everything I didn't
I didn't think I was being ungrateful
I was a product of my worldly experience.

Now, I know it won't be easy and it'll take some time
But no one says that love grows over night
So I'm going to learn to love me truly
I'll love my imperfections and i'll do it right

So if you don't love me, that's okay
Because I will love myself
Starting from today.